When my ex and I were breaking up over the phone, I kept repeating to him that you know if you are with the right people if you vibe with them. I literally sounded like a broken record with nerves, but with a hint of truth.
My friends and I have been through so many different types of men. And anyone can agree that dating can be exhausting. From the ghosting, manipulation, lies, flakiness, and commitment phobes out there, things feel shaky. But when all goes surprisingly well and all of a sudden shit still hits the fan, I usually blame it one thing: ENERGY
A Recap & Mini Drag Of My Ex
Previously, I talked about how I noticed my ex’s energy was off. It was the typical “he’s pulling away” card. But, there was also something darker in the air the last time we talked face to face in my apartment. Like, he had skeletons or something that just made him evil (which I do have confirmation a bit as to what was in his head with his “sexual fantasies”). Additionally there was a clear envy in which I had more going on in my life, than he did in his. And trust me, I had to sage my apartment from his cloudiness right after his jealous insecure ass was out of the picture.
Now I can get into the whole successful independent women being one of the many things that men hate, but I’ll get into that a different time. Point is, is that this blog really is to emphasize that the right people around you will show. You will start to glow differently, have weight lifted off your shoulders, and laugh a lot more.
This isn’t to say I am perfect. As you can see, my blogs in the past few years have been more negative. I use to feel lonely, depressed, and my external factors weren’t the best. And to be honest, there’s nothing wrong with feeling shitty. But, It wasn’t until I started embodying confidence, setting boundaries, and putting myself out there that I really saw new opportunities. This isn’t to say I was ever broken, but it’s to say that an energy shift can bring you into a new chapter.
Sometimes you Experience the Worst to Prepare For The Best
And those upcoming chapters were never ever easy. I’ve had terrible job experiences at what I thought would be my dream career, was a corny dummy white dude’s fetish, and have been dealing with the memory past traumas here and there. However, the strength I’ve had with dealing with the bad and the support around me has been stronger compared to what I have in the past. Again, this isn’t to diss my previous circles nor my previous self, but I’ve had too many experiences that have shaped me to have so much resilience and optimism for the life I have now. AND I LOVE EVERY INCH OF IT!
It feels calming, promising, fulfilling and lovely. There’s less anger and more self empowerment, serenity, and emotional love in the air. And who knows, I may come back on this site cussing someone out next week lol. But with all the bullshit that happened this year, I am happy that previous chapters have ended and that the new ones are shining super bright (shade to my old jobs đŸ–•).
Also on a quick note, it feels fucking good not to have Sunday Scaries anymore, feeling great at work, and being the bubbly me again. Like wow.
And I recently had this deep conversation with a guy đŸ‘€ on energy. And he put it in the most simple words: the energy you put out is the energy you receive. And yes, I know there are great people out there who deal with a shitty deck from time to time, but I am a firm believer in rewards coming to you in some way, sometime if you do good. And if you are putting out negative energy, whether it’s vengeance, envy, deep insecurity, manipulations, etc, your life will be a reflection of all that: not so good.
Your Energy Is The Key To Self Love
I say this to all say that yes, energy and vibes are one of the cores with manifesting and going on a journey of self love. Taking a step back and looking at yourself will help find the root to your issues. I had to do that and I am still continuously doing that. However, we should always strive to be the best version of ourselves. That’s when we start to attract and receive. Not just glimpses of hope, but actual healthy new beginnings.
